Give to receive

I had always been a giver. I was really deep into community work, you know the usual of helping the needy. I really thought for sure that I was giving the best I could until I went to church. The pastor started telling us about giving nd I felt like I had wasted all those years giving. You see when we give, we give sparingly. Imagine when you want to donate clothes, you will not give away a dress you have recently acquired. You will go straight to the back of your wardrobe and pick out those things you no longer fit into or they are out of fashion. That’s not how we are meant to give.

Think about what God gave, HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, he could have done it half-heartedly and given one of the humans or the whole group of angels but NO he decided to give something that was dear to him. His son. Abraham was also ready to give his son to God. These are the kind of things we should be giving. When you are putting your offering in church, it should hurt. You must think in your mind, “This much money? How will I make it through the month?” And the answer is simple, the God who is able to provide abundantly above what you have asked for will see you through. He is Jehovah Jireh, the provider.

When you give to your brothers and sisters, you must give freely and not reluctantly because then you are giving in vain. It must give you joy to give. Get excited knowing that now you have given, God now owes you not man that is limited by his bank account balance. When you give, you are sowing a seed so be filled with expectancy for a bumper harvest. You reap what you sow. God loves a cheerful giver! When you give, you free up your hand to receive more.

Date: 11/4/2014
Mood: Expectant
Dedication: Worship House – Blessed to be a blessing

Baruch hashemAdonai


Fasting III

This article on Fasting has been taken from Classic CRU

If you have never fasted before, I applaud your present interest! Fasting has been a major emphasis in the lives of many of the great spiritual leaders throughout history. John Wesley, the founder of the Methodist denomination, fasted every Wednesday and Friday and required all of his clergy to do the same. Effective ministers of God from the apostle Paul to Martin Luther to John Calvin made it a continual part of their walks with God.

None of those men had a “formula fast” that was the only “right” way. Fasting is about the condition of the heart, not the number of days. Each time that I have fasted for forty days, it was because I felt impressed by God to do so.

So, start slowly. Fast for one meal a day, or one day a week, or one week a month. Build up your spiritual muscles so that you will be prepared in a period of several months to fast for an extended 40 day period.

The Bible Recounts Primarily Two Types of Fasts

A partial fast is described in the book of Daniel. Although the water fast seemed to be the custom of the prophet, there was a three-week period in which he only abstained from “delicacies,” meat, and wine (Daniel 10:3).

The two primary types mentioned in the Bible are the “absolute” and “supernatural absolute” fasts. These are total fasts-no food (solid or liquid) and no water. Paul went on an absolute fast for three days following his encounter with Jesus on the road to Damascus (Acts 9:9). Moses and Elijah engaged in what must be considered a supernatural absolute fast of forty days (Deuteronomy 9:9; I Kings 19:8).

So, I strongly advice you to drink plenty of liquids. Obviously, if God leads you to undertake an absolute fast, you should obey. If so, be certain, without doubt, that God is leading you.

Water-only fasts that last for more than several days need to be undertaken with complete rest and under medical supervision because of the extreme danger of over-toxification, breakdown of vital body tissues, and loss of electrolytes.

I personally recommend and practice water and juice fasting, especially if you are going to fast for an extended period of time. This type of fast will provide you with more energy than absolute or water-only fasts and still lead you into the humbling experience of denying your desire for solid food that you can chew.

When it comes to making your final decision about what type of fast is right for you, the best advise I can give you is to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit. He will guide your heart and mind as to what is best for you. Remember, the most important consideration in fasting is your motive. Why are you fasting? To seek something personally from God’s hand or to seek His face in worship, praise and thanksgiving?

Fasting II

ImageWhy have we fasted?’ they say, ‘and you have not seen it? Why have we humbled ourselves, and you have not noticed?’ yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please and exploit all your workers. Your fasting ends in quarrelling and strife, and in striking each other with wicked fists. You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high. Isaiah 58:3-4

Fasting isn’t just about not eating. A hunger-strike is also not eating. There is a conduct that is required of us during our fasting season. Yes, there’s a wrong way to fast. Usually, most people think we shouldn’t tell others when we are fasting but then how else would they know that today isn’t really a good day for a lunch date. I don’t mean publicise on your Facebook but I think your small inner circle should be aware so as to stay out of your way and maybe support you in prayer.

Moreover when ye fast, be not, as the hypocrites, of a sad countenance: for they disfigure their faces that they may appear unto men to fast. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward. But when thou fastest, anoint thine head, and wash thy face: Matthew 6:16-17

What is happening to you while you are fasting is a beautiful thing. Your inner man is being renewed. (That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his spirit in the inner man; Ephesians 3:16) You are updating your ant-virus. The lines are falling onto you in pleasant places. God is doing a new thing in your life, be happy and perceive it.

For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse: Romans 1:20

Enjoy your fasting, focus on God and he will see you through it. Mediate on his word day and night and let it renew your mind. I guarantee you will feel like fasting all the time. Nothing’s stopping you really.

ImageDate: 9/4/2014

Mood: Renewed

Dedication: Hillsong – You stand alone

Baruch Hashem Adonai

Fasting I


Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke? Isaiah 58:6

Just thinking about it makes me want to raid my fridge. Anyway, as Christians we are operating under the ‘redeemed’ operating software and fasting is our anti-virus. Over time, it’s very easy for our souls to get “gunked up”. Fasting is a way to give our bodies and our souls a deep cleaning. When we do, we find that not only do we feel better, but as we draw closer to God, we are more in tune with His voice. This topic is so complex and long but I’m gonna try to make it basic. As Christians we are required to fast. It’s a pre-requisite. From the old testament straight through to the New Testament fasting is a recurring theme. Even Jesus fasted (case in point.)

Therefore also now, saith the LORD, turn ye even to me with all your heart, and with fasting, and with weeping, and with mourning: Joel 2:12

Biblical fasting is, very simply, denying oneself food for the sake of seeking and honouring God. Pastor Stovall Weems says that “prayer is connecting with God; fasting is disconnecting ourselves from the World.” That’s a great way to describe the feeling. You can fast from other things that keep you connected to the World, too. Things like TV, video games, social networking, chatrooms and more.


He must increase, but I must decrease John 3:30

If you want your patience tried – fast. On that day, all kinds of people will be offering you food and lunch dates. You will be sent on errands to go order food or to cook and serve food. But I assure you that the end results far outweigh the temptations.

Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard. Then you will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here I am. Isaiah 58:8-9

Drink lots of water. Pray. Read your Bible. Listen to worship music. Think. Meditate on the WORD.

Date: 8/4/2014

Mood: Rejuvenated

Dedication: Hillsong – All things are possible

Baruch Hashem Adonai

Dating, Courtship and all that drama

ImageAnd the Lord God said, it is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him. Genesis 2:18

Nobody wants to be alone. I mean with the media constantly selling all kinds of ideas about love, it gets hard to decipher what’s real and what isn’t. I have dated all kinds of men (not all men) because that would mean the good ones don’t exist. All these experiences have hurt me and in that hurt I have learnt. It’s not about sleeping with them or anything like that. A partner can be toxic in more ways than just fornication.

Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelivers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness? 2 Corinthians 6:14

I am currently on a ‘relationship hiatus.’ You see when I got baptised I only wanted one thing – to get closer to God. The emptiness I had tried to fill with people could only be filled by him. I am in the ideal child bearing age and all around me people are getting married and pregnant. It’s not carnal of me to want that but at this point in my life it would be stupid to. I have a mandate as a single woman.

There is a difference also between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman careth for the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit: but she that is married careth for the things of the world, how she may please her husband. 1 Corinthians 7:34

God wants you married. That’s why he created Eve for Adam. He has put aside somebody for you who will be bone of your bone and flesh of your flesh. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness. When the time has come and God has made you ready you will meet the right one. Don’t fall into temptation and lust for decoys. Pray constantly and try every spirit.

Nevertheless, to avoid fornication, let every man have his own wife, and let every woman have her own husband 1 Corinthians 7:2

Date: 7/4/2014

Mood: Patiently waiting

Dedication: Juanita Bynum – I don’t mind waiting

Baruch Hashem Adonai


ImageThere hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. 1 Corinthians 10:13

Life as a spirit being isn’t always hunky-dory. There is a constant war against the lusts of the flesh. For about three months now I had been talking to this guy. We live in different cities but he has come to my hometown twice. I decided in my mind that I really like him…a lot! So he says to me, “I have a girlfriend.” At this point it felt like I had been punched in the stomach. “She is pregnant.” I was seeing a bright light and a small voice calling me to come. I knew for sure that I had died from heartbreak. I deactivated my Facebook account and crawled into a hole.

They on the rock are they, which, when they hear, receive the word with joy: and these have no root, which for a while believe, and in time of temptation fall away. Luke 8:13

Weeks later. He sends me a message, “I have married her.” You’d think I had a relapse but no I did not. I wished him well and said ‘Congratulations, I’m excited for you.” I wasn’t even faking. “You can be my mistress if you want,” he said. I stood up from the computer, took two steps back, swallowed my spit and re-read the message. I had no choice but to log out.

Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: that the trial of your faith, being much more precious than that of gold which perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ: 1 Peter 1:6-7

I prayed about it because God knows how much I liked this guy. I levelled with God that I know that this ain’t smart and please, “…deliver me from temptation.” (Matthew 6:13). The next time I logged in I found messages from his account that had been sent by his wife shouting at him and me. I went to the bathroom and yelled, “BARUCH HASHEM ADONAI.” The burden of seeing this temptation through had been lifted. It was over and now he and I have cut all ties. And honestly, I wouldn’t have been able to. The spirit was willing but the flesh was weak.

Watch ye and pray, lest ye enter into temptation. The spirit is ready, but the flesh is weak. Mark 14:38

Date: 4/4/2014

Mood: Free

Dedication: Benjamin Dube – Humble yourself

Baruch Hashem Adonai

My parents and I

When my father and my mother forsake me then Jehovah will take me up. Psalms 27:10

I would like to say that this verse gave me comfort when my parents and I fought over my new found religion but I’d be lying. It was the worst thing to ever happen to me. I had never fought with my parents so viciously. I’m still dealing with the whiplash. It’s never easy to be cut-off by your parents but if the reason is good I assume it makes it easier. You see, parents do things out of love. I don’t regret anything that happened to me in their hands. I have always let them decide for me what to do with my life and for a while I entertained the thought that maybe just maybe I was wrong about my calling and that I shouldn’t pursue my life in the church. But I was so miserable. Everything sucked! And then I finally understood what God had told Abraham,

Now the LORD had said unto Abram, Get thee out of thy country, and from thy kindred, and from thy father’s house, unto a land that I will shew thee: Genesis 12:1

If you brought up under the tight discipline that I was, you can understand what a mammoth task this must have been. But parents have this power over us as their children that I can’t explain. They can make us do things, sometimes those things aren’t for our benefit. God realised that this tie-that-binds is not easy to overcome and the bible says,

He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. Matthew 10:37

When I came across this verse I was really excited. It put my fears of disobedience at ease. I pursued Christ with a new vigor. When we go to Christ, its imperative to leave everything behind. Am I saying hate your parents? By no means! But Christ needs to be the number 1 love of your life. Notice how Elisha burn his oxen just before he followed Elijah. You can’t carry all your baggage to Christ. You are now a spiritual being, earthly things must now take second precedence.

And he returned back from him, and took a yoke of oxen, and slew them, and boiled their flesh with the instruments of the oxen, and gave unto the people, and they did eat. Then he arose, and went after Elijah, and ministered unto him. 1Kings 19:21


Date: 30/4/2014

Mood: Relieved

Dedication: Solly Mahlangu – Wahamba nathi

Baruch Hashem Adonai